Where am I standing?

The date… Once very special… Now a mere memory…
So today is supposed to be that day where I celebrate the yearly anniversary with my ex girlfriend… Supposedly the 7 year mark. Usually we go out somewhere briefly to eat since it landed on a weekday and prepare some form of gift for each other too… I know it’s the new year so I won’t think too much into it but I do wonder and the only way to better myself is to feel what I need to feel right? But somehow, I’m not upset. I feel good right now. Although my life has changed drastically, maybe this is how my life should be lived. And who knows, in the next few months or years, I may bump into her and we can truly be friends. Thinking ahead is so vital and since it is a new start now, I can start planning my life! Work, money, friends, and maybe new girlfriend? Lets see where destiny brings me… 
So my new year started with lazing around the house, waiting for my phone to return to me since I left with my mate accidentally. It’s amazing how this one little device can change my mood instantly. With my feelings fluctuating without my phone, I could not stand the fact I cannot contact my friends for one day! The amount of reliance on this device is something I should not be proud of. Imagine if I lost it… I’d probably lose it! I need to segregate my life from technology to prepare what happens next… Maybe technology could be one of the reasons why I am lazy? Leaving my phone with my friend was the test from destiny indicating to stop relying on it! So is this an eye opener or something I should ignore? So lazing around the house was not a great thing to do however, I blame it on the evening I had… I woke up at 2pm but the rest of it was just watching episodes… Receiving my phone was a huge relief! I immediately turned on my phone and then checked who messaged! Quite a few messages I missed but the most popular thing spammed was the “Happy New Year” messages but all good. For another hour, I just messaged everyone explaining why I was not responding to their messages.
As I stand on the train, I begin to think about projects and as a result, I feel like creating a public chat client. This is a test towards my programming skills to see where my level currently stands. I feel as though I’ve lost my sense of direction in terms of development. When I was once asked “what do you want to be?”, my mind returned a blank variable! I saw myself in games programming but with where I am sitting, I am still where I was when I first graduated! Maybe now with experience but nonetheless, my development skills have decreased all due to motivation…
Generally, I am hyped about getting my development skills back to scratch. My hands itch for the keyboard to develop my own things and this chat client is beneficial for me… Simple and fun…
The thing I lack most lately is single player games. Multiplayer is limited and completely different from a casual single play. You have story, learning about the character, background… I remember playing all these games but I need to revive that part of me again. It all comes down to motivation…
Having friends? Going out? Bad thing about that is the spending but it is absolutely worth it if you do not want to go crazy at home…
So far, I am happy with what I am listing down now but to execute these actions is the main issue… Lets hope it goes well…
All the best…

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